Is life all about pain?

Coz that's what I remember of most part of my life ...

I've experience all sorts of pain ...

The pain of having to see your parents argue in front of you ...

The pain of loving someone that doesn't love you ...

and the pain of just being in love ...

The more you care ... the more pain you feel ...

The more possessive you are, the more pain you feel ...

I feel like my heart is going to burst ... seriously ...

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I feel like I'm going crazy soon ...

I want to do some crazy stuff ...

I mean like seriously do some crazy stuff ...

I wanna go on a shopping spree ...

I wanna spend like there's no tomorrow ...

I wanna go on a vacation ...

I wanna explore places I've never been before ...

I wanna go crazy with my friends ...

I want to go to the beach ...

I want get my own laptop ...

JUST KILL ME!

Labels?? Does it even matters??

I gave it a thought on what should I post here today ... I guess I'm gonna post about sexual orientation ... It's been on my mind for quite some time ...

Hmm ... I guess one of the thing you have to keep in mind is never judge anyone for being who they are ... and let me tell you, you'll never understand what gays, lesbians, homosexual communities in whole, feels, until the moment you step into their world ...

But hey, they're humans, they have feelings, and they fall in love ... the only thing is just, straight people feel that these homosexual people are abnormal, but hey it's just a thought, just because people think its abnormal, doesn't mean it is ... just because they go against the flow ... they are not following the law of nature ... which is, girls "should only be" attracted to guys, and guys "should only be" attracted to girls ... that they should be labeled as "abnormal" ...

Try to understand and be in their shoes, just once, and you'll get what I mean ...

I salute these people who are being true to themselves ... they're happy being who they are ... and accept themselves as who they are ...


My point is ... gays, lesbians, bisexual, homosexual, or even straight, does it matters?? They're humans too ... so treat them like one ...

Gadgets

It was a great day today that I decided to write a blog dedicated to one of my favourite gadgets ...

TaDA! It's camera =.=

Yea, I know, damn sweat right ... I know, I know, whole world owns a camera ... but I'm not part of the world I guess >.< When I went to China, I was looking around for these as well ... If my memory did not fail me, the prices are almost the same ... who says I can spend like a Queen when I'm in China, Bullsh*t! haha!


And when my dad went to Japan, I was so cheeky to ask him and get me one ... but then again ... I gave it a second thought ... and told my dad it wasn't necessary =.= my dad also told me that if he bought the camera for me in Japan, the menu will be in Japanese, CoOL! Can I enrol for a Japanese lesson now?? Gosh! Just to understand the menu of that camera, ain't worth it, hahaha!


And fast forward to this year ... about few weeks ago, there was a Camera Fair at the Ground Floor of Gurney Plaza, I asked for the price, it was less than RM1000, about RM900++ I was like over the moon ... and when I asked again, when is this fair gonna end, the sales person said that it was the last day, wtf =.=!!!


I did a lot of thinking when I was shopping around ... Should I buy it? Do I really need it?? Is it just a temporary obsession (you know, it's like when you can't have that something, you'll be longing for it) ...


Now, I'm just waiting for the PC Fair that they're going to have this coming April, hopefully I can get a better bargain out of it ... better still if they give me for free la, Hahaha! Okay, maybe in my dreams, but can't a girl daydream, SHeeSh!


Oh, I forgot, I can put it in my wish list and ask my dad to get it for my 20th Birthday, WoOHoO! Hopefully he will not give me the expression that he gave 2 years back "We already have a camera" ....


Yea, of course we have, its the family camera marh, all share share wan marh =.= and you know its like 5 mega pixels only, and the display screen is as small as a stamp, I kid you not ... It's KODAK, and it's not spoilt yet ... it's just chucked somewhere in some drawers right now, so kesian, not even my dad is using it ... and it's been replaced by FUJI ... which sometimes my dad will bring along when he goes overseas ...


I'm partially saving money for the camera as well, if there is a good bargain at the PC Fair, I'll jump right to that opportunity ...


Hopefully my daddy is kesian of me and planning to pay for the whole thing ... but probably in my dreams, coz he just bought me a mobile phone which costs him RM1600 ... *heartache* more like heart attack, haha! I pity my dad for having a daughter like me ...


But hey, even if my dad really bought me a camera, I'd be super guilty, although I'm happy, coz he bought for me a mobile phone which has 3.2 mega pixel built-in camera =.=

Budget plan ... FAILED!

Oh GOD! It's been quite a while ... sorry bout that ... been busy .... but I'm always busy =.=

Okay, cut the crap ...

I don't even remember what I'm busy about, for the past few weeks, weird huh??

The only thing I know is, I'm trying hard to remember my assignments datelines (In which I don't remember at all, till now ... I'm so dead) And I still didn't do anything about them ... YIKES!

Recently ... I've been tempted to buy this and that ... but I controlled myself ... You know what always happens?? It's like when out of the sudden, if I have like lots of money, I don't know what to do with it, and spending it, is not an option for me, as I feel that it's such a waste ...

But then again, I'm "broke" ... Well, I'm not exactly broke yet, but I'm telling my brain that I am ... I have to stop myself from buying things that I don't exactly need ... Its not like I don't have clothes to wear ... well all those things that I desire to have, is just an obsession ...

It doesn't help that my dad kinda buy me anything that I want ... well, provided that I really need it .. even if I don't need it, I still manage to persuade my dad to get me ... that's the magic I have on my dad ... But I have to change this bad habit .... Coz I'm gonna die if my future job can't support this habit of mine ...

I started to get conscious on what I spend ... I jot them down in a small notebook ... in which I totally freaked out when I see all my expenses *faints*

Okay, today is 11th of March ... 11 days into march and I've used up ... around 70 bucks ... my initial plan was to use 100 bucks per month ... In which I fail to do ... I've used up 70% of RM100 ... and it's not even the middle of the month ... my plan

FAILED!

But hey! What do you expect from a college student ... yea, especially when you're an INTI College student, man! The canteen in this college is robbing the students! GOD! They charge the students oh-so-expensive, I swear I'll never eat at the canteen again ... They charge me 3 bucks for baked beans and two fried stuff (which looks like sausage) ... 3 BUCKS!! It's not even enough to make people feel full!


I can pay 3 bucks anywhere else and get a BIG, and I mean BIG as in LARGE plate of fried rice or maybe noodles, F*CK the canteen operator, just pack your things and get out of INTI college's canteen, Micheal Yap, PLEASE SACK THEM!! Please for the sake of your students, I know you may be rich enough to eat everyday at the canteen, but us students are NOT!

I'm still damn pissed off that they charged me damn expensive for a piece of SH*T!

And Oh ya, they charged RM2.50 for sandwich which by the way tasted like shit too! I could have forgive you if it taste absolutely delicious, but its not ... even if your charge me RM1, I won't even bother to buy it! F*CK YOU!

Thanks for ruining my budget plan!

Mess with the DIT students, and you can say bye bye to your income, honey!

Don't worry, coz we're the oh-so-professional ... or should I say expert in complaining department ... So we'll see how long you can stay there ... GOOD LUCK by the way ...

May you be choked to death with the money you "robbed" from us students!

God Bless You!

Whatever

This is certainly NOT a happy post ...
I've been f*cking looking at the computer screen for hours trying to find out which Australia University is best for me ...
After I figure that out, I have to crack my head on which f*cking major I should choose ..
But the thing is, I haven't figure out any of those things yet ... F*CK!

And then, that's not the end of it YET
I have to take into consideration about the tuition fees per year and also the f*cking living cost over there ...

I am so going to puke soon ... I have this big headache going on in my brain ...
I'm just so f*cking tired ...

Oh yea, I'm an IT student, I f*cking forgot that I have to face computer for the rest of my f*cking life ... GREAT!

F*ck the world!