I finally made my decision. It wasn't as easy as everyone thought it would be.

I talk things through with cs and think that this is the best thing for the both of us.

:) Thanks B

I guess I'll be staying here to finish my degree and I'll fly off to Melbourne 2 years later.

I don't know what's in store for me two years later, but I'm prepared to face anything.

If its meant to be, its meant to be. There's no use worrying about it or trying to fight it.

I'm at peace with myself.

My new year resolution? Be a better person and be emotionally stronger.

I have my friends and family here with me, there's nothing I can't handle :)

I'll re-vamp this blog for New Year.

My wish list for Christmas?

1. Be less of a cry baby
2. spend more time with cs

I'm not 重色輕友 just that after cs left, I won't be seeing cs for the next 2 years.

"Instead of being disappointed about where you are, be optimistic about where you're going"

Hey guys, sorry for missing in action for weeksSssSSss ... Sorry bout that, coz I went on a holiday to Newcastle, Sydney, Tasmania and Melbourne. Haven't had time to upload and edit all the pics. I've been moving around, and made a quick decision to come back to Penang, last minute. I landed on Penang Airport last week. I don't remember the exact day, but I'm really happy to be back home.

I kept it a secret and made cs swore to never announce it on Facebook, so that I can surprise my dear ChingChing :)

AND MY PLAN WORKED!!!

She cried when she saw me, MUAHAHHAHA!

I'll upload pics and talk more about that in the next post.

As for now, I'm in a HUGE crossroad ... I don't know which way to go. I'm hoping someone could show me the RIGHT way this time.

I'm having this phobia of going back to Australia to study. I'm really scare of being alone, like seriously. I never had the opportunity to go study overseas with a bunch of friends. Consider yourself lucky if you had friends to accompany you all the way. You may not think they did much, but trust me, little things matters. When you're sick, they're there for you, when you're homesick, they're there to comfort you.

I was thinking of coming back to Penang and study at SEGI college ... but if I did that, I think it just shows that I'm a coward. Nobody would turn down a chance to study overseas.

I hate making decisions. Everything seems wrong.