眼淚笑了

比想像中更痛 你真的沒回頭
我命令眼淚不許失控

回憶不跟你走 都擠在我心中
我就有責任讓它值得被珍重

謝謝你曾讓我難過 謝謝我沒有想太多
當愛情左盼右顧的時候

我眼淚都笑了 誰還想哭呢
再勇敢的站著 找回光和熱
面對你的時候 我不會捨不得
因為你已是過客
因為路有些曲折 是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快開鑿綠洲
我沒有時間不知所措
你溫柔的雙手 本就不屬於我
又何必在乎它以後屬於誰呢

謝謝你曾讓我難過 謝謝我沒有想太多
當愛情左盼右顧的時候

我眼淚都笑了 誰還想哭呢
再勇敢的站著 找回光和熱
面對你的時候 我不會捨不得
因為你已是過客
因為路有些曲折 是美的

我眼淚都笑了 誰還會哭呢
來不及完美的 就唱首驪歌
想起你的時候 我不是卑微的
反而我沒有遺憾
因為我已愛過你 深深的

Study = Stress

I AM suppose to be studying right now ... But I don't know why I can't get myself into study mode =.=

My dear have been "lor sor-ing" a few days now, asking me to study and memorize >.<

I'm left with about 1 day plus to study =.= 

And THEN, I'd just work hard while waiting for dear dear to come home to me ^^

~Exactly 30 days before I can hug my dear dear again =)

I don't wanna countdown, but I happen to have this countdown thingy at the bottom of my iGoogle page, haha! But still, I rarely scroll down to have a look at the numbers.

Well, after my exam, I have heaps to things to be done, and keep me busy till the day my dear dear is home =)

Boring Post!

This semester's exam is gonna start next week!!! 

As for me, my first (and last) paper would be on the 30th October 2008 ^^ Which means, I'll sit for my first paper and after I'm done, I'm a free woman!!!!!!!!!!! It's HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!

It is so COOL!!! 

... =.=

I don't know why I got so excited ... so early ... 

... I still have days to suffer before I can take a rest from books 

BUT wait!! I still can't rest, I have my FINAL project coming up next semester, and this time everything is kinda different ... I have to have my own ideas, before I go on and look for a project supervisor =.=

And THEN, I had to get my Proposal and some stuff done before the starting of next semester, OMG! =.=

I STILL HAVE final project briefing on 12th November 2008 =.= And it seems nobody can attend this project briefing thinggy coz they have to go back to hometown =.= But it is compulsory to go, not unless you have like a really good reason ... and if you're hometown is at Indonesia or Arab, you can escape the briefing, hahahhaha! 

double sweat =.=!!

Anyways, I don't careeeeee ... Holiday is coming, I'm gonna work for money and plan my holidayyyyy (which include trying to start of the project early so that I can finish early) so that I can spend more time with dear dear when ah dear is home ^^

I am a VERY boring person, and I NEED 27th NOVEMBER to COME FAST!!! LIKE SUPER FAST!

I didn't go out much recently ... well, just yesterday ... I went and watch "The House Bunny" at the cinema with my friend (I support original marh) Haha! It was a funny movie, quite "mou liu" (nonsense) but still it's good fun larh!

I'm lazy to put pictures in this post =.= Sorry, I'll get back soon with a picture post.

I was suppose to go gym this morning, but the weather was bad this morning ... It rained ... I think I'll run off to gym in the afternoon ...

I'll see you guys around!!!

P.S: Ching ching and Janice, I miss you girls!!!

P.S.S: Dear, don't jealous, I miss you too!!

Sick !@#$%

I've been missing in action for a while coz I was really really sick ... I feel like I've been to hell and back =.=

Last Wednesday, I got so sick that the next morning, I can't even get myself to get up from my own bed ... I had high fever, I felt dizzy, my whole body aches, I have cough ... and on Friday, after gobbling down countless Panadols, I am still sick!!! !@#$%^  And OH! There's another surprise in store for me, GASTRIC!!!!!!!!!!!!! (*Insert Foul Language*) 

I am sick to death and now, GASTRIC?!?!?! It's not like I go on a diet or trying to be anorexic larh! Why punish me with gastric!!! !@#$%^ I don't have appetite to eat anything, and nobody seemed to bother to get me anything to eat, so every morning, I just had a slice of bread and take my medicine, I don't even care if I'm still hungry. I repeatedly do that every time I have to eat my medicine, coz I can't have my medicine with an empty stomach.

On saturday, I'm sick of being hungry and cooking things for myself when I'm like half dead. So I ask (Yea, I HAD TO ASK) for my dad to get me porridge for breakfast !@#$%  (Sometimes I just wish people could do things without being ask, I'm sick and I still need to ask for food, pathetic!)

I remember one afternoon (Well, I'm too sick to remember which afternoon it is) I had to cry just to get some attention, and telling people I might kill myself soon. My fever have not gone away, and become even worse, after I finished all the Panadols that the so called certified doctor gave me. I told my mom that my fever hadn't gone away, then I started to hide myself in the blanket and refused to look or talk to anyone. 

And only then, my mom ask my dad to go to pharmacy to get some medicine for me, and that took him like 2 or 3 hours =.= Forget about it, at least he get me some medicine. 

Yea, for those who are concern, I'm all better now. Although I did feel just a tiny bit dizzy, I don't know why, but I am alive, thank you!

Thank You Dear <3

Wondering why no post about the One Year Anniversary ... Well, I've got nothing to say about that day though ... It's just like any other day *or worse* (I'm really tempted to say something here, but I'm NOT going to)

Anyways, I went to my best friend's sister's wedding ... I'm happy for the newly wed, but it wasn't a really great day for me ... 

I'd usually like to post bout happy stuff, but then again, I can't find anything happy to blog about ... seriously ...

When I came home, I found a mail lying on my study table ... 

and I immediately know who send this to me ... Well, coz nobody sends me mail, and definitely nobody is crazy enough to send me an international AIRMAIL, coz it's bloody expensive k!!! (other than my dear dear, coz she loves me ^^)

Well, that kinda makes me feel a little bit better, but wait! I just had a little argument with dear dear a few hours before I know about this mail she sent me ... I don't know why, but every time I had to have an argument with dear dear, right before the things that she send me arrives =.= (bloody hell! !@#$%^)

GOD! Now I feel bad ...

I still feel bad right now, even after hours of sleeping ... and waking up with a tired body and mind ... I still feel what I felt the night before ...

Inside the big padded envelope ... 

I found this ...

The postcard that she occasionally sends to me ^^ This is the cutest ever!!

Dear, thank you for taking time to make this card ... and trust me when I say, I really like this card ... in fact, I love everything that you ever made for me ... I just miss you so much ... I wish you can be home as soon as possible ...

I haven't been in a good mood lately, and I don't know why ... 

Bye.

Close

About a year ago ... after few months/weeks, being with dear dear ... I found Westlife "Coast to Coast" album in my dear dear's car drawer ... And then I said "Do you know I used to be a BIG BIG BIG fan of Westlife, I have their HUGE poster (in which my mom bought from Switzerland, just for me ^^) I have almost all their album (in the forms of cassette, coz I'm still too young and penniless, so the only thing I can afford is cassette) 

And THEN, I start collection their pictures from Magazines (I waste A LOT of money on UK magazines, coz they have lots of Westlife related stuff, one mag is around 20 bucks!!!) Okay ... I even bought their CD's after that =.= That's how crazy I am over Westlife ... And my favourite member of the group is Kian ... then Shane ... and then Mark, hahaha!

I particularly like their "Coast to Coast" album and I love each and every song! 

And this is one of my favourite!!! And this is dedicated to my dear dear ... for our One Year Anniversary, which falls on 5th October ^^

"Close"

Across the miles 
It's funny to me
How far you are but now
Near you seem to be
I could talk all night
Just to hear you breathe
I could spend my life
Just living this dream
You're all I'll ever need

You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love someone to hold
When I'm in your arms
I need you to know
I've never been
I've never been this close

With all the lovers 
I used to know 
I kept my distance I never let go
But in your arms I know I'm safe
'Cause I've never been held
And I've never been kissed in this way
You're all I'll ever need
You're all I'll ever need

Close enough to see it's true
Close enough to trust in you 
Closer now than any words can say

And when, when I'm in your arms, 
I need you to know I've never been
I've never been this close

You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love someone to hold
When I'm in your arms
I need you to know
I've never been
I've never been 
I've never been
I've never been this close

OMGG!!!!!!

OMG!!!!

YOU GUYS WILL NEVER HAVE GUESSED WHAT I USE TO CURL MY HAIRRRRR!!!!

Hahahah! Sorry bout the caps, I'm just excited and overeacting!!!!!

I know I look weird with curly hair, but then again, this is just an experiment larh! Coz I don't wanna waste money go and perm my hair ... Just in case, after I permanently curl, then I want it straight again, then I'll be wasting money =.=

Let me tell you the secret!!!!!

I CURL MY HAIR USING FLAT IRON!!!!! THAT'S RIGHT, THE HAIR STRAIGHTENING THINGY!!!!!

Who would've thought that a FLAT iron can curl hair!!! Well, maybe I'm the only one that is still clueless larh, but nevermind, I'm still happy that I discover it, hahaha!

I wanted to look for sweatlee video in youtube, the one where she teaches how to curl hair, but that is using the curly thing (I forgot what is it called, sorry)

But I end up with this video instead, coz I search the wrong thing =.= Hahaha! I was so damn lucky coz the video teaches how to curl hair by just using the flat iron, MUAHAHAHA! I'm so so so so so damn happy that I invested on a flat iron a while ago ^^

OMGGGG! Now I can have straight or even curly hair, anytime!!!!! 

One year ago ...

On this date, exactly one year ago ... at 1.03pm ... My dear wrote me a message on my mobile phone ... at the INTI Library, before she went of for her lecture class ...

"Bye bye.. Heh he ... Don bin chao chao... Later our class time hardly meet and after class I'll play basketball! You go home and rest love you..."

This was like the most memorable moment ... because "Surprise!!" We ARE NOT together yet!!! And my ah dear wrote "love you..." to end the message, hehe!

I have no idea why I "bin chao chao" ... maybe coz I was in a bad mood, I forgot what reason ... maybe PMS-ing, haha!

2 days more to our One Year Anniversary ...

<3 

我們就到這 。。。

I absolutely LOVE this song ... It's a sad song ... but still I love the meaning ... Enjoy listening to the song and video =)

作詞：方文山     作曲：陳忠義 

玻璃中反射 咖啡還溫熱 
我用霧氣在鏡面手寫著 愛你呢 
床上音樂盒 依舊旋轉著 
但你卻不再為我唱歌 說我是你的 

對的錯的 做了選擇 故事說到這 
只是過去的甜蜜太過深刻 
要多久 才能夠褪色 
好的壞的 做了選擇 我們就到這 
縱然會難以割捨又能如何 
說好了 這個時刻不互相指責 

初戀的顏色 我們都記得 
像家鄉那條小河 透明得 很清澈 
你曾為我摺 一千個紙鶴 
如今卻連一個擁抱 你我都尷尬著 

對的錯的 做了選擇 故事說到這 
只是過去的甜蜜太過深刻 
要多久 才能夠褪色 
好的壞的 做了選擇 我們就到這 
縱然會難以割舍又能如何 
說好了 這個時刻不互相指責 

永遠的承諾是彼此給的 
只是當初任誰也不曉得 
愛情的轉折 比想象中的坎坷 
感情的怨懟拉扯 牢牢捆綁著 
有些裂痕你無法去 遮只能捨得 

對的錯的 做了選擇 故事說到這 
只是過去的甜蜜太過深刻 
要多久 才能夠褪色 
愛的恨的 做了選擇 我們就到這 
就讓我曾愛過的記憶深刻 
其他的（才能夠褪色） 
就此放手 微笑的帶過 
就此放手 微笑的帶過

3 days to go ...

3 days to our One Year Anniversary ^^

I'm so excited, but then again ... Hmm ... I feel like I'm excited over nothing ... 

That doesn't mean that I'm not happy that we're almost together for one year ...

There are times when I sit around thinking about all those things that dear dear did to make me happy ...

I know I've said it thousands of times, or probably more ....

20th October 2007

Remember this??

That was really unforgettable ... seriously ... Driving all the way from Butterworth on that special night, and surprised me with roses ^^ You have no idea, how it feels, I don't even know how to describe my feeling at that moment ... 

That bouquet of roses may not have 99 roses ... but it is more than enough to make me remember this for life ... and 3 roses, means "I Love You", hehe! 

That was the first time dear dear ever gave roses to anyone ^^

14th February 2008

 

This is special too, not because it's Valentine's Day ... but because, you are so far away, and you wouldn't let the distance stop you from giving me roses on Valentines' Day, hehe!

I was actually jealous at some couples that get to spend Valentines' Day with each other ... and you know larh ... INTI =.= So many girls holding flowers on that day *sob* 

I send an sms saying that I wish dear was here, so ah dear can broke her piggy bank to buy me roses =P

Haha! With that said ... A few moments later ... I got a phone call from the delivery person =.=

Dear dear really got me a bouquet of roses!!! But she order it the day before from a friend and ask her to deliver the roses to me ^^

I guess the most surprising would be on 5th October 2007

Coincidently that day was INTI's Prom Night at Gurney Hotel ... Half way through ... I got a call from dear dear ... Dear said she's gonna reach there soon ... when she finally reach I went out to look for her ... and then, she was holding this Laconic bag ... and said "This is for you" ... I was a bit surprised ... Nevertheless, I love this puzzle pendant that ah dear chose ..

Unfortunately, I accidently misplace/lost the pendant ... Till now I still can't forget bout this pendant ... I'd still miss it *sob*

P/S: Dear, there are times you may think that I'd only remember all those bad things you did to me (Which is NOT true) I did remember all the good/romantic things that you did specially for me ... I still remember the chocolate you bought for me when I had my mood swings coz it's that time of the month again ^^ and jacket that you took for me, when I was feeling cold ... 

Every little things that you did, sometimes makes me even happier than getting me something expensive ... You may think I'm stingy (Well, I have to admit, I am, hehe!) But I'm not stingy when it comes to spending it on you dear ... 

I'm saving money now, so I when I'm in Australia, I could fly to Newcastle to find you, anytime I want, without asking money from my parents ... 

I'm hoping that this One Year Anniversary would be an unforgettable ones ... 

<3