make it work ...

Sometimes I love you more than you'll ever know
Other times you get on my nerves
Hey, that's just reality,
no, it can't always be kisses, hugs and beautiful words
This can only be as good as we both make it
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Hey, we can be as happy as we want to be, girl
But we gotta make it work
Thick and thin
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we're supposed to give it up
My problems are yours and yours are mine

Y2S2 - First day :)

I just finished my exam like last week -.- on Thursday that is ...

And today, its the beginning of a new semester for me. Today is the first day my Year 2 Semester 2 class commence ... Might as well kill me.

You emo one month on the exam, and right after exam, its the starting of a new semester? Honestly, I can't even breathe, coz right after exam, my friend told me there's something that needs to be hand in on the first day of the semester. In which I went nuts on, and finally hand it in today.

Oh, one more bad news. I *might/probably*, fail my database programming paper. *sigh* Some guy in my class went and asked the lecturer on the performance of our class on that particular paper, and it seems that the lecturer told him that most student in our class fail =.= fml.

Anyways, I really tried and did my best, database is not my favourite subject coz I always get shitty lecturer and I have to study myself.

oh, whatev! I couldn't care less, I've sat for the paper, and whatever the result is, I will try to accept it coz I can do no nothing anymore.

//

driving fast + listening to emo music seems to calm me down.

time to let 'tears', 'heart' n 'feelings' go on a long overdue vacation.

I would prefer if the three of you go and don't come back, cause you're always driving me nuts, I'm better off without you...

time to bring back the old me.

time to remind myself who I was.

I am strong, and I don't need nobody.

Happiness?? Maybe next life ...

I am emotionally drained, after yet another day of arguments that ended up in tears. (for me at least)

My eyes are sore, and it feels so heavy.

Honestly, I never really know what went wrong. The more I let you get your way, the worse the situation gets. I could list out a thousand things that I do and change about myself to make you happy.

You, in return, always give me the same reason. "I can't change who I am".

Well, you didn't bother to try.

You like to be loved without giving anything in return. Who doesn't like that? Even I, for once, wanted to just be loved without changing myself to meet your needs of having freedom, watching tv 24 hours a day, and leaving me here alone.

I'm being labelled as a "needy" person, a "control freak", who tied you up and made you can't breathe. Really? Did I ever ask who, where, or when you go out? Like seriously, I haven't done that for ages. I never say no to any outings with your friends or anyone, for that matter.

Your definition of "tie you down" is me requesting to chat with you after like, weeks of not having internet connection, and finally you're at a place with internet connection, and you're more interested in watching tv than chatting with me. So I tie you down by "not letting you watch tv". Like seriously, this is the biggest joke of the year.

You watch tv 24 hours a day at your own home, ok? You don't have internet connection and watching tv is all you can do. So now when you're at a place with internet connection, tv is still more important to you??? Does it make sense?? I don't know bout you, but it certainly doesn't make any sense to me.

Maybe we're both from like a two different world and nothing you do makes sense to me, and nothing I say makes sense to you. It's like I'm trying to communicate with you in your own language, but since it's not my so called "mother tougue" it is hard for me as well. You on the other hand decides to let me do all the work of learning the way you communicate with the people in your own little world, and all you can say is "I don't wanna learn how to communicate in your language".

Good example, right?

Anyways, no hard feelings if you ever read this. (I doubt you ever will)

Blogging and pouring my feelings out is what I love to do. I can't change who I am. Just like you :)

I swear to the wind, sea, cloud, tree, kangaroos, and dawgs that I will NEVER EVER go into another Long Distance Relationship, or you might as well kill me. No more Taurean for me as well, they just drive me nuts sometimes, fuck their tempers, too fuckin' emo as well. Great friends to have, kind to animals. That's about all the good things I have to say about them :D

I'm not anti Taurean, I have some great Taurean friends. Lovers? Think a thousand times. Don't say I didn't warn ya'.

Happiness just don't last forever. Well, at least in my life it doesn't. I've experience a couple of months of living in cloud 9, being treated like a princess/baby/whatshitever, a long time ago, and now, I'm back to being a pathetic lil' human. Hurray for me! :D

I will live my live to the fullest. As long as I get to rant on this blog about my life. I will be happy.

My wish for this lifetime? Is to be loved, and maybe visit cloud 9 once again :) This time, God please make it a longer period of time. If you're taking away after a couple of weeks or months, you might as well, don't give it to me in the first place. Because I am always jealous of every other couple around me, except for myself. I always think to myself "I wish I was treated this way". I always wish I was everyone else but me.

Pathetic right, but I don't need anyone's pity. It's just me ranting to get all these things off my chest. I will get my life in order again.

Loser

I don't know if some people are illiterate or just acting dumb that they had to ask other people to jailbreak their own iPhone.

If you know how to use PPS to watch drama series, I am sure you are smart enough to do everything else.

Google is there for a reason, duh! You don't know how to use a mouse? Google it! You don't know how to start your car? Google it! You've never seen porn? Google it!

You can even Google some stupid question that you're too ashame to ask anyone else.

So there you go, I've let the most powerful secret out. Google.

I've pointed out the direction to you. Now start Googling instead of asking other people to do the dirty work for you. You wanna get an iPhone? Then it's time to start discovering new things YOURSELF instead of asking people about it.

I'm pretty sure the iPhone will be of no use to people like you. You're just buying it to show off to us people that you're far superior and belong to a class higher than us. Guess what? You may own the iPhone, but your brain belongs to the third world country. You are never gonna fit in into the "upper class". Face it! Not even the iPhone can help you. Get an NDS instead.

You must be a genius :D

I was going to write this post before I head out, but I don't have enough time.

I was very annoyed, but now I've calm down a little.

Let me get to the point here.

There are times when I get really annoyed when people ask me or people around me to buy things for them, from eBay.

To set the record straight, I have no problem helping friends buy stuff from eBay, but the thing I hate is when people ask me if it is gonna be safe to buy things from there (e.g. you might get con), but at the same time forcing you to buy things for them from eBay.

and I'll go "????? what the eff is wrong with you, does your brain need tuning or something??"

First off, you wanna let me buy things for you from eBay, do that at your own risk. Like seriously. I can't promise you or swear to you or whateverthefuck to you that the seller won't lie/con me. Hey, its not like I'm the Queen Elizabeth, where people will be sentence to death if they con me, duh!

There is major risk involve when you buy stuff from eBay. That is why you don't just click the "Buy" button the moment you saw something you like. You have to look at other buyer's comments and stuff for the seller, then only you make your decision. It always took me ages to get something from eBay, coz I always want to be extra careful with my purchase.

Second off, buying the iPhone from eBay. An iPhone cost like what?? 800 bucks on eBay?? So?

The risk involved in buying iPhone from eBay:

1. You're almost sure that you are con, like seriously.

2. You buy from an Apple Store for like what? around 1040-ish?? I mean c'mon! You're paying 800++ from eBay and its 1040 bucks on the Apple Store, you do the math, bro! If let's say you're freakin unlucky, suey, bad luck or whatfreakinever, the iPhone up for sale on that eBay is a fraud. They prolly took your money and didn't send you anything or they either send you a china brand iPhone, not only you don't get your iPhone, but you lost a freakin 800++ bucks for being a genius!! How sweet is that?!

Why don't you take that 800++ bucks, and work hard for another 200 bucks, and get your own iPhone at the Apple Store. Doesn't that sound a lil' safer for such an expensive items?

I know some people might say to me "C'mon, you are rich so you can get an iPhone from the network provider/Apple Store". Well, say whatever you want. I know I'm not rich, I'm just lucky to have a dad that would buy an iPhone for me. I know some people have to work hard for it, that is why I rather suggest you to go to the network provider or an Apple Store to get one, so you wouldn't get con on eBay.Saving all your hard earned money from going down the drain.

If I were you, I would rather pay more, than to be con on my hard earned money.

-The End-

Wood Winked ;)

WTF FML

I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO WRITE THE WHOLE POST IN CAPS COZ I AM FREAKIN EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FINALLY GOT MY FIRST M-A-C PRODUCT!!!!

OMG! OMG!! Ok, I need to calm down wtf. I still can't believe I finally got my own M-A-C cosmetics products!!

I got myself an eyeshadow in the colour "woodwinked".

I'm IN LOVE with it!!!

Dreams do come true WTF!

I'm gonna go back to M.A.C next month and get another colour, which is "bronze". I wanted to buy them today, but sadly, I'm already broke coz its end of the month :(

Nevertheless, I'm am very happy today.

I have to get back to my revision nao :(

Thoughts #1

I really want to explore Penang one day, with B and maybe some of my friends :D

Although I'm a Penang Lang, but I rarely go all the way to the touristy spot.

If B were to come back one day, I would definitely do a "Exploring Penang" trip or something, and Imma be armed with camera to take pictures of all the beautiful places Penang has to offer XD

Me and B once did a crazy thing by driving up to Kek Lok Si to do a touristy stuff, but that's about it. This time Imma be doing a whole day trip, keke!

I haven't had time to think about it yet, coz I have exam tomorrow and this coming Thursday (27th May). fml. Wish me luck!

And my class will resume on 31st May FML MAX!

So in between 27th and 31st May, Imma go all out!! I'm going to enjoy myself and do crazy stuffsss!!!

And this time, I'm not so lucky with my new semester's timetable *sob* I have classes EVERY.SINGLE.DAY fml again

I count count d. I have to spend my Birthday in class fml.

Man, I have to stop with this fml. wtf.

Oh, I got a new blog account in Tumblr for a while now. I'm thinking whether to move or not. -.-

I'll let you guys know the link (not that anyone would care :P), after my exam ;)

Imma go back to my revision. fml. wtf.

Diary #1

I wish you could understand me.

The only person that I wish to understand me, doesn't really understand me at all.

I wish you could see that I'm not as strong as you are. You can't apply the rules you live by, to my life as well.

Being apart for so long have taken its toll on me. We're not chatting as often as we used to, and we even stopped Skype-ing all together.

I'm sure this is not a recipe for a successful long distance relationship.

Can someone tell me what to do? Coz I don't know what to do with myself anymore.

FB friends?

You guys know why, up till now, I still only have like 81 friends on my Facebook account?

The answer is simple.

I don't like random people (those that never speak to me or know me in person) knowing what I do, every single minute of the day, and the thoughts of letting them see my photos is even more scarier.

If you try to find me on Facebook account (even if you do have my e-mail address) that would be a mission impossible, I might add.

... and I'm proud to say I privatized every single shit on my Facebook :D

Strangers can't see my profile picture, and I choose who can see my photo albums, and who can't (I mean doz that are already in my "friend's list"). There are some really "lucky" people that can't even see my status updates :D

I have to admit, there are a couple of people that I never really know, but I was sent "friend request" by them ... and I "give face" coz they are B's friends XD

I mean I'm fine with it, coz they seem friendly :) I can be mean, but I'm not mean to friendly people, Haha!

But there are some people that add me coz the just randomly saw me on the sidebar of their Facebook page, and that I happen to know their friend. Which is NOT cool. Cause I don't even know you, duh!

Every couple of months, I will delete some people from my Facebook friend's list, coz I just don't know what are they there for. I'm not one of those people that like to show off that I have a few freakin' thousand friends. I'm like 'Duh! there's no way you have a few thousand "friends".'

And lemme remind you, Facebook, is not Friendster. Man, I kinda hate Friendster nao. I don't even login into my Friendster account anymore.

=.= so, yea, its just some random rants, back to studying for my exams. fml.

Shoot you!

FTP, PING, TRACERT? -.- wtf

I know at some point Imma have to deal with all these terms -__-

... can't complain, at least it's better than Economics.... the graphs scares the hell out of me!

(In which I have to thank my tutor at Curtin University, Andrew Brennan, for being a great tutor and taught me a lot about econs, coz I'm a noob in that subject)

Okay, so ...

It's kinda hard for me to understand all these dunno wot FTP (Fish the Plant?) terms when I didn't really do all these networking stuff in real life -.-

(P/S: I'm not dumb, coz I'm not blonde, I know FTP is File Transfer Protocol, duh!)

=.= Even if I memorize the whole thing, it doesn't mean anything to me.

I just wanna finish my degree stat (if anyone is wondering wot "stat" means, it means immediately), be done with it, and get a great job that I'm happy with :)

I need moneh to support my spending XD

kthxbye

Dear Steve Jobs,

Thank you for inventing the iPhone. It was the best mobile device I've ever come across. But you know what? It scares the shit out of me last night. I was on my bed, tossing and turning around and I still can't sleep (Having insomnia, 3rd night in a row. I'm sure you're not interested to know about that). I took out my iPhone and wanted to play a game or two.

Guess wot?

The apps refused to launch -____-

Imagine my frustration and heartache when I realize my iPhone could be faulty, and Imma prolly end up iPhone-less for God-know-how-long if I took it to my network provider to have it fixed.

Yes, I know I would be paralyzed, technically, not literally, without my iPhone.

My iPhone blackout a couple of days ago and now the apps wouldn't launch. :(

But thankfully, everything worked out in the end.

So Steve Jobs, please do something about the problems that iPhone have, like, the camera wouldn't launch, the apps wouldn't launch, the iPhone hangs -.- and I'm sure if you try Googling, you would find out a lot more problems that us iPhone-rs encounter.

So yea =.= Thank you for your time. I doubt you'd ever read this, but =.= oh, nevermind.

From,

An iPhone fan

..|..

"Hey, hw's your revision going?"

You know what I wanna reply you with?

Fuck You.

..|..

I mean, why the fuck you wanna know how did my revision go? You asked this question 234732498 times on MSN, THAT IS WHY I BLOCKED YOU, YOU IDIOT!

I've fucking blocked you for a month now!

And now you're texting me? Go fuck yourself, like seriously.

I can't stand people asking me questions like "What are you doing?" or "How's your revision goin". I WILL KNOW if the person is kiasu or not. Trust me.

There are some of my friends that asks me out of concern, and this bloke IS NOT one of them.

You wanna know what I replied?

I replied "Not bad"

and I thought that would end the need to have a long conversation with that dumbass.

But NO~~ That dude won't stop.

He continue with "Oh ... so good ar. How bout your database? Finish revision already"

You know what? Take the time and do your fucking revision instead of asking me if I finished mine.

Take your fugly arse out of my way before I blow up and give you a piece of my mind!

I don't need to tell you if I've done my revision or not, because, NUMBER 1: You ain't my mother. NUMBER 2: You're just a loser.

Honestly I really don't wanna be rude to you, but you're going overboard. Like seriously.

I can be a really rude b*tch if I want to, but I choose not to. Just do me a favour and mind your own business, go fuck yourself or something. Just DON'T DISTURB ME with your fugly text.

I have proceeded to DELETE the dumbass message. I don't want no rubbish on my baby iPhone.

Whispers hello I miss you, I miss you.

I'M FREAKIN' HAPPY!!!

My dad got me a new car!!!

Just for the record, I'm actually happy with the old PROTON WIRA, coz I can actually drive recklessly in that old car (don't care if I hit a coconut tree with it, or a cat scratch it, haha!). BUT my dad said that he would get a new car for me coz the old car is actually really pricey to maintain (You know la, MALAYSIA BOLEH!). He would have to change this and that.

GUESS WOT CAR I GOT??!!

I GOT A PERODUA MYVI!!!!!

I mean I personally think its a fat car, I don't even know if you can describe a car as fat, but IT IS a fat car.

But I'd rather get a MYVI rather than the lame VIVA k. I think I would look lame in a VIVA, at least I can look cool when I drive MYVI, HAHAHAH!

Well, that's not the reason I got MYVI lah, coz a VIVA cost around 40k MYR, and a MYVI cost about 46k MYR AND it's 1.3. So I mean, if you're paying an extra 6000MYR for a 1.3 car, is kinda worth it.

AND it looks cool (I got the dark grey ones *new colour*)

2 more months till I get the car :(

worth the wait I guess :D

Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year.

B loves this layout for my blog :)

I just got new heels today from Vincci, B was all blah blah blah about it, Haha! Coz B thinks that I bought heels AGAIN!

Hey, the last time I bought heels was AGES AGO!!

Newayz, B told me I can't wear heels if I'm going out with her :(

(B must be secretly jealous that I would be taller in heels)

B loves the sporty me :P

I love the tomboy-ish, sporty side of me also, where I can just put on hoodie and jeans and I'm off :)

I absolutely LURVEEEE hoodie!! I mean I'm living in this freakin' crazy hot country, but I DO LOVE HOODIES!!

I love those from Abercrombie & Fitch and also from Hollister, but sadly we can't get those in Malaysia. Well, at least not in Penang. Not to worry, I got one from Australia before I flew back!!!!!!!!! That's the only purchase that I didn't regret on making. It was like 69AUD, which is about 210MYR, but who the heck cares? It's my one and only chance of buying Abercrombie & Fitch hoodie!!!

I'm not spoilt brat or anything (just because I spent like 210MYR on a hoodie), I just feel that I needed that hoodie, and true enough, I wore it every freakin day during winter in Australia. So it's really worth it!

If you want it, here's my heart. No strings attached.

What would you do if its the end of the world at this moment?

I'm quite sure you'd do anything you like -.- prolly skydiving or swim with the shark in the sea, besides, you're dying anyways. So you got nothing to lose.

Before I went to sleep last night, this saying sprung from my mind "Live everyday like its your last" . . . . . . . . . . . . right -.-

So, live everyday like its your last?? What if today is not your last? and you did everything that you like on your list of "MUST do before die" you end up hurting everyone around you (or prolly killing/slapping/punching everyone you hate) and the world decides that it doesn't wanna end . . . . . . . . . .

so whatchuwannado you smartass that comes up with this saying =.=

end up in jail, I guess??

Well you can do whatever you want if the world is actually ending, just don't go overboard, there's karma, people!

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

Imma do a lil' random update before going to bed :)

Funny thing happen today (well, at least I think its funny, duh!)

Newayz, I was surfing the net and I was reminded of a wretch blog that me and B own, since like 2 years ago. We wrote stuff bout each other there (well I should say "I" instead of "We" coz I'm the one the did most of the writing) So yea, I wanted to log into the account, but here's the funny part.

... I don't remember the username or password for it anymore -.-

SO, being the genius me, I try and try putting on different combinations of usernames and passwords to no avail. =.=

In the end, I had to ask B when B got back from work.

... And ... B don't remember as well =.=!! So there goes ... me and my funny story. I don't know if I'll ever remember the password, but I'll try to log in again when I'm free.

As for now, I needa concentrate on my studies *Oh God! Please give me my study mood lah*

-.- I'm like studying without putting my brains on, coz I can't seem to understand what's going on in my notes. The note looks complicated although its written in English =.= damn!

and OH! I found my HP white wireless mouse *sayang* omg omg! So happy okay!! I feel like dying when I have to use wired mouse, with all the long and hanging wires -.- I just can't stand it!

That's bout it. I'll be on my bed soon!!

B, I miss you! I miss the feeling of being really close to someone I'm really comfortable with. Miss you lots!! Can you fly back naw? *sob*

Peanut Butter n Jelly

I'm sittin here with a bowl of chocolate ice-cream, while menstruating =.=

-.- didn't mean to give that detail, but it is my blog anyways.

So, I'm suppose to be studying, exam is in about 1 or 2 week's time ... but I'm still here YouTube-ing. Staring at my messy study table. And its 2.22pm now. I needa go clean up the mess on my study table and start studying, like naw!

And oh! I had a great night outing with my friends last nite :) It was a blast!

I got home at around 2.30am, and skipped my diet routine last night by having a BIG buffet dinner with them at Tao Autocity, but it was worth it :D

They are the only group of people that will laugh at my cold jokes (or laugh at me) -.- which is a good news for me (either ways), Haha!

I hope I will be happy always, and last night was the one night that I'm truly happy ;)