make it work ...

Sometimes I love you more than you'll ever know
Other times you get on my nerves
Hey, that's just reality,
no, it can't always be kisses, hugs and beautiful words
This can only be as good as we both make it
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Hey, we can be as happy as we want to be, girl
But we gotta make it work
Thick and thin
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we're supposed to give it up
My problems are yours and yours are mine

Y2S2 - First day :)

I just finished my exam like last week -.- on Thursday that is ...

And today, its the beginning of a new semester for me. Today is the first day my Year 2 Semester 2 class commence ... Might as well kill me.

You emo one month on the exam, and right after exam, its the starting of a new semester? Honestly, I can't even breathe, coz right after exam, my friend told me there's something that needs to be hand in on the first day of the semester. In which I went nuts on, and finally hand it in today.

Oh, one more bad news. I *might/probably*, fail my database programming paper. *sigh* Some guy in my class went and asked the lecturer on the performance of our class on that particular paper, and it seems that the lecturer told him that most student in our class fail =.= fml.

Anyways, I really tried and did my best, database is not my favourite subject coz I always get shitty lecturer and I have to study myself.

oh, whatev! I couldn't care less, I've sat for the paper, and whatever the result is, I will try to accept it coz I can do no nothing anymore.

//

driving fast + listening to emo music seems to calm me down.

time to let 'tears', 'heart' n 'feelings' go on a long overdue vacation.

I would prefer if the three of you go and don't come back, cause you're always driving me nuts, I'm better off without you...

time to bring back the old me.

time to remind myself who I was.

I am strong, and I don't need nobody.

Happiness?? Maybe next life ...

I am emotionally drained, after yet another day of arguments that ended up in tears. (for me at least)

My eyes are sore, and it feels so heavy.

Honestly, I never really know what went wrong. The more I let you get your way, the worse the situation gets. I could list out a thousand things that I do and change about myself to make you happy.

You, in return, always give me the same reason. "I can't change who I am".

Well, you didn't bother to try.

You like to be loved without giving anything in return. Who doesn't like that? Even I, for once, wanted to just be loved without changing myself to meet your needs of having freedom, watching tv 24 hours a day, and leaving me here alone.

I'm being labelled as a "needy" person, a "control freak", who tied you up and made you can't breathe. Really? Did I ever ask who, where, or when you go out? Like seriously, I haven't done that for ages. I never say no to any outings with your friends or anyone, for that matter.

Your definition of "tie you down" is me requesting to chat with you after like, weeks of not having internet connection, and finally you're at a place with internet connection, and you're more interested in watching tv than chatting with me. So I tie you down by "not letting you watch tv". Like seriously, this is the biggest joke of the year.

You watch tv 24 hours a day at your own home, ok? You don't have internet connection and watching tv is all you can do. So now when you're at a place with internet connection, tv is still more important to you??? Does it make sense?? I don't know bout you, but it certainly doesn't make any sense to me.

Maybe we're both from like a two different world and nothing you do makes sense to me, and nothing I say makes sense to you. It's like I'm trying to communicate with you in your own language, but since it's not my so called "mother tougue" it is hard for me as well. You on the other hand decides to let me do all the work of learning the way you communicate with the people in your own little world, and all you can say is "I don't wanna learn how to communicate in your language".

Good example, right?

Anyways, no hard feelings if you ever read this. (I doubt you ever will)

Blogging and pouring my feelings out is what I love to do. I can't change who I am. Just like you :)

I swear to the wind, sea, cloud, tree, kangaroos, and dawgs that I will NEVER EVER go into another Long Distance Relationship, or you might as well kill me. No more Taurean for me as well, they just drive me nuts sometimes, fuck their tempers, too fuckin' emo as well. Great friends to have, kind to animals. That's about all the good things I have to say about them :D

I'm not anti Taurean, I have some great Taurean friends. Lovers? Think a thousand times. Don't say I didn't warn ya'.

Happiness just don't last forever. Well, at least in my life it doesn't. I've experience a couple of months of living in cloud 9, being treated like a princess/baby/whatshitever, a long time ago, and now, I'm back to being a pathetic lil' human. Hurray for me! :D

I will live my live to the fullest. As long as I get to rant on this blog about my life. I will be happy.

My wish for this lifetime? Is to be loved, and maybe visit cloud 9 once again :) This time, God please make it a longer period of time. If you're taking away after a couple of weeks or months, you might as well, don't give it to me in the first place. Because I am always jealous of every other couple around me, except for myself. I always think to myself "I wish I was treated this way". I always wish I was everyone else but me.

Pathetic right, but I don't need anyone's pity. It's just me ranting to get all these things off my chest. I will get my life in order again.

Loser

I don't know if some people are illiterate or just acting dumb that they had to ask other people to jailbreak their own iPhone.

If you know how to use PPS to watch drama series, I am sure you are smart enough to do everything else.

Google is there for a reason, duh! You don't know how to use a mouse? Google it! You don't know how to start your car? Google it! You've never seen porn? Google it!

You can even Google some stupid question that you're too ashame to ask anyone else.

So there you go, I've let the most powerful secret out. Google.

I've pointed out the direction to you. Now start Googling instead of asking other people to do the dirty work for you. You wanna get an iPhone? Then it's time to start discovering new things YOURSELF instead of asking people about it.

I'm pretty sure the iPhone will be of no use to people like you. You're just buying it to show off to us people that you're far superior and belong to a class higher than us. Guess what? You may own the iPhone, but your brain belongs to the third world country. You are never gonna fit in into the "upper class". Face it! Not even the iPhone can help you. Get an NDS instead.

You must be a genius :D

I was going to write this post before I head out, but I don't have enough time.

I was very annoyed, but now I've calm down a little.

Let me get to the point here.

There are times when I get really annoyed when people ask me or people around me to buy things for them, from eBay.

To set the record straight, I have no problem helping friends buy stuff from eBay, but the thing I hate is when people ask me if it is gonna be safe to buy things from there (e.g. you might get con), but at the same time forcing you to buy things for them from eBay.

and I'll go "????? what the eff is wrong with you, does your brain need tuning or something??"

First off, you wanna let me buy things for you from eBay, do that at your own risk. Like seriously. I can't promise you or swear to you or whateverthefuck to you that the seller won't lie/con me. Hey, its not like I'm the Queen Elizabeth, where people will be sentence to death if they con me, duh!

There is major risk involve when you buy stuff from eBay. That is why you don't just click the "Buy" button the moment you saw something you like. You have to look at other buyer's comments and stuff for the seller, then only you make your decision. It always took me ages to get something from eBay, coz I always want to be extra careful with my purchase.

Second off, buying the iPhone from eBay. An iPhone cost like what?? 800 bucks on eBay?? So?

The risk involved in buying iPhone from eBay:

1. You're almost sure that you are con, like seriously.

2. You buy from an Apple Store for like what? around 1040-ish?? I mean c'mon! You're paying 800++ from eBay and its 1040 bucks on the Apple Store, you do the math, bro! If let's say you're freakin unlucky, suey, bad luck or whatfreakinever, the iPhone up for sale on that eBay is a fraud. They prolly took your money and didn't send you anything or they either send you a china brand iPhone, not only you don't get your iPhone, but you lost a freakin 800++ bucks for being a genius!! How sweet is that?!

Why don't you take that 800++ bucks, and work hard for another 200 bucks, and get your own iPhone at the Apple Store. Doesn't that sound a lil' safer for such an expensive items?

I know some people might say to me "C'mon, you are rich so you can get an iPhone from the network provider/Apple Store". Well, say whatever you want. I know I'm not rich, I'm just lucky to have a dad that would buy an iPhone for me. I know some people have to work hard for it, that is why I rather suggest you to go to the network provider or an Apple Store to get one, so you wouldn't get con on eBay.Saving all your hard earned money from going down the drain.

If I were you, I would rather pay more, than to be con on my hard earned money.

-The End-

Wood Winked ;)

WTF FML

I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO WRITE THE WHOLE POST IN CAPS COZ I AM FREAKIN EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FINALLY GOT MY FIRST M-A-C PRODUCT!!!!

OMG! OMG!! Ok, I need to calm down wtf. I still can't believe I finally got my own M-A-C cosmetics products!!

I got myself an eyeshadow in the colour "woodwinked".

I'm IN LOVE with it!!!

Dreams do come true WTF!

I'm gonna go back to M.A.C next month and get another colour, which is "bronze". I wanted to buy them today, but sadly, I'm already broke coz its end of the month :(

Nevertheless, I'm am very happy today.

I have to get back to my revision nao :(

Thoughts #1

I really want to explore Penang one day, with B and maybe some of my friends :D

Although I'm a Penang Lang, but I rarely go all the way to the touristy spot.

If B were to come back one day, I would definitely do a "Exploring Penang" trip or something, and Imma be armed with camera to take pictures of all the beautiful places Penang has to offer XD

Me and B once did a crazy thing by driving up to Kek Lok Si to do a touristy stuff, but that's about it. This time Imma be doing a whole day trip, keke!

I haven't had time to think about it yet, coz I have exam tomorrow and this coming Thursday (27th May). fml. Wish me luck!

And my class will resume on 31st May FML MAX!

So in between 27th and 31st May, Imma go all out!! I'm going to enjoy myself and do crazy stuffsss!!!

And this time, I'm not so lucky with my new semester's timetable *sob* I have classes EVERY.SINGLE.DAY fml again

I count count d. I have to spend my Birthday in class fml.

Man, I have to stop with this fml. wtf.

Oh, I got a new blog account in Tumblr for a while now. I'm thinking whether to move or not. -.-

I'll let you guys know the link (not that anyone would care :P), after my exam ;)

Imma go back to my revision. fml. wtf.