::The result of my period not coming on time::

What did I learn from being in a relationship?

I learn to be considerate, to think bout other people's feeling, and they should have their own life as well. I guess their life does not actually revolves around you. I guess the most important thing in any relationship would be communication. If there's a communication break down, I guess the relationship is gone.

What is my weakness? [I don't even know if its the correct question =.=]

I guess that would be, I'm kind of an absurd kind of girlfriend all the time sometimes. Up to a level where I should admit myself to a psycho hospital. I'm the stalker-ish type of girlfriend =.= I wonder why I feel like I am. Cause its like I'm very sticky, and if you don't love me enough, then it would seem annoying. I think at this point the people who are reading this would think I'm a psycho ... yea, you're probably right. I still haven't had my period yet =.=

Major flaw?

I guess my major flaw is, I get upset easily ... on the slightest, tiniest thing ... I know why ... its coz I always expect certain things, and when it didn't happen like I expect it to happen, I would freak out. In my mind, I would think "you should have done this and that" ... which is kinda wrong. If I keep thinking this way, I would keep getting upset and it's really tiring to be feeling like this all the time.

And I can never accept myself as number 2 in anything ... especially in someone's heart ... but now, I don't give a damn ... If I care bout all this, I would be a very very tired person. I actually hate myself for all those shitty attitude/thoughts I have. All those rules that I made up myself on how a relationship "should be". There is no shitty rules! There SHOULDN'T BE!

Remember how simple a relationship is, I mean at the beginning of it. Yep, an sms would satisfiy me ... but I guess nothing stays in one place all the time k. If I'm expecting something to stay in one place and never change, that is CRAZY! People change, feelings change, even I changed.

I just need to learn adapt to the current situation I'm in ... constantly finding new ways to communicate with each other ... I should think of it as a challenge. If there is no challenge in a relationship, wouldn't it be a boring ones?

It takes two to tango, and in a relationship it takes two to person to work things out. I guess I just need to shut my eyes, hold on tight, and never let go no matter what. It might just lead me somewhere interesting.

Wonder why I wrote this post?

Well, I'm also not sure ... but it sure helps me understand myself better ... and hopefully periodically remind myself to just chill, stop being paranoid, and stop being pathetic.

*Wish me luck*

32 days to go ...