Was sitting on the bus on the way to Uni. Had my iPod turned on to my favourite song, somehow my mind was somewhere else and not into the song.
I was wishing I could have fun, I wish I can go out of my comfort zone and be someone else for one day.
Put on make-up, go out with friends, go clubbing and just not be the boring ol' me. I've never did all those things, it's like a forbidden place to me. Being the eldest child and sister, makes me feel that I need to always stay out of trouble.
When my lil' sis' was 14 or 15 years old, she got an 18 year old boyfriend who is a DJ (in some club I assume). She went clubbing, and she learn how to smoke, but of course she was grounded after mum found out about it, and had to stop everything. Well, she's doing good, she's an angel now, Haha!
She sure live her life to the extreme huh? What did I do?
Well ...
Nothing
I would love to do such thing one day. Just go out with my friends everyday, and just lose myself.
If I die tomorrow, I think the thing I'd most regret about is that I never really lived my life. I don't know what fun is, seriously. I'm not a geek that read book all day, and yet I'm not a social butterfly. I don't know what I am =.=
1 comment:
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dont worry maple, i was never into clubbing and party-ing too. :P
but u have to atleast drink beer and hold ur alcohol in. if u can do that, i promise u next year when we're back, i will go to ur house and literally drag u out with me. haahha. nothing big la.. go KTV maybe? and if u feel that u dun like it we can leave anytime.. and if ur up for it i can take u to bistros also.. normally pubs are more civil, nothing wild, just a bunch of grown ups in their own groups chatting after work etc. its a totally relaxing environment so im hoping u have no probs hanging out there :)
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