Friday, August 28, 2009

Depressed, Assignments, Tests and everything in between ...

Can anyone tell me if I'm studying the wrong degree now??

Can't studying be fun??

I think I'm just being emo coz it started to rain again over here =.= I reckon I have Seasonal Affective Disorder ... I know that term from 'The Oprah Show" that I watch yesterday -.- I'm not sure how to explain that, so you guys will just have to google it out -.-

Anyways ... I'm just stressed out about the Marketing 100 assignment I'm suppose to pass up next week ... and also two tests that I have to sit for ... and then .. things don't end there ... the week after that ... I have another assignment due .... I think I did not have the Seasonal Affective Disorder ... the correct diagnostic would be "Assignment & Tests Affective Disorder"

I'm constantly bombarded with tutorials, class activities (it counts towards my class participation marks) which means, every marks that I can get is IMPORTANT! Lecturer often threaten us to finish up the damn tutorial -.- well, I think I shouldn't use the word "threaten" ... The correct term should be "stressing"

My only goal in all this is trying to get better grades than I did in my Diploma ... back then I was too blur about everything ... I thought I just needed to study like I did in Secondary School (most part of it was having fun) ... I didn't know that everything that you did in Diploma will be included in your overall average which may effect you when you're looking for Uni to accept you.

I guess there's no use saying all this right now ... I'm already here ... I'm half way through my first semester ...

If I had follow my heart ... I would have stayed in Penang ... probably switch to KDU or something for my degree ... I would have still had my car ... and the freedom to go shopping -.-

OR I can go INTI Nilai ... still have my friends with me (still within my comfort zone) ... and probably I would be studying something I love ...

I know I shouldn't be complaining ... coming here is like a dream come true for certain people (well I used to feel that way) but you wouldn't feel that way when you're alone ... I guess not staying in hostel was a bad idea ... I'm still lack of friends here ... but it is way better than the 1st and 2nd week here ... at least now I got to know 2 Malaysian friends .... and 2 other Chinese from China ...

Can I change my mind now?

It's not fun anymore ...

I just wanna be home ...

2 comments:

pixiepixie said...

most ppl overseas experienced the same thing. u just have to be more proactive about it. in order not to feel lonely u must try mixing around. i know its like out of ur comfort zone but u need to try. that's the way to conquer ur loneliness and face ur problems.

anyway, i hope u can cope with all ur assignments etc. if u need any help just msn me and let me know cuz i have friends last time who took the same units as u (i.e. Marketing), so maybe u guys had almost the same assignment so i can ask them for a copy if its similar. pls dont hesitate asking me yea?

take care

DIVA-esque said...

tiffie: Thanks :) I'll be alright, I'll let you know if I need any help