Honestly, I've been very emo lately. I don't know its because I'm PMS-ing or I'm suffering from depression of some sort.
2 months here, and I'm still practically alone, maybe I'm just hopeless when it comes to making friends, but wait ... if I'm hopeless in making friends, where'd all my primary school, secondary school, National Service, Work Place and even College friends comes from?? Did they just fall from the sky just for me? Well ... maybe
Uni life is so different, everybody either have their own group of friends, OR they're busy with their own life (e.g.: love being alone) =.= I have no idea. I'm not as lucky as some of you that comes to Australia with a bunch of friends and *might not* know how it feels like to be alone and not talking to anyone ONE WHOLE DAY!
Or or, if I'm talking right, I'd be talking to my mum through Skype (the MOST talking I've done whole day), or on the phone with cs, or saying "Hi! Bye! See Ya'" to my landlord and housemate.
Today was lucky, I talked to my mum and my best friend through Skype as well. So today was an average *not bad* day, coz at least I talked and laugh and enjoy what a NORMAL HUMAN BEING usually does on a DAILY BASIS.
I get grumpy and moody when I'm all alone. I realize the more I feel alone, the more clinggy I am towards cs, which is something that she doesn't like at all. This has taken toll on our relationship, but there's practically nothing I can do about this shit-uation I'm in.
I cry often nowadays, but I can't help it. It's not like crying can solve problem, but imagine you not being able to express yourself on a daily basis, and had to keep everything to yourself. So the only thing I can do is to cry to release my stress/emo-ness/whatever the heck I'm keeping to myself.
I know blogging is one of the way to express myself, but I don't like to make my blog become all emo *sigh*
Anyways ... when I'm friggin free hor, I'm going to blog bout cs's cousin's hens' night! I went to karaoke with a bunch of her friends and also relatives, all girls, but I didn't really know most of them, but nevertheless, they're really friendly, I had a good time singing ... was forced to drink, haha! But not to worry, I'm officially 21 :) I just drink one glass of vodka mix with sprite, but I end up feeling sleepy instead of drunk =.= I feel hot, dizzy, and sleepy =.= not bad ey
more on that on the next post ... I hope
I'll try to pick myself up again ... don't know if I'll succeed but I'll give my best effort :)
3 comments:
hmm.. well, when i arrive in perth last year, i didn't know anyone at all, and lived with a horrible sister who bullied me all the time and made my life a total shit-hole. so i always hate being at home and i couldnt go out often cuz i had no friends who can drive. i know exactly how u feel. last time i was very demanding and clingy as well because i felt alone over here... but after a couple of months when i got closer to some of my friends in college, i was fine by then :)
anyway, i have holidays this week, might go somewhere but havent planned anything yet atm. when i do i will give u a call my dear.. hope to see u soon!!
hen's night! how fun!! u should enjoy going ktv and drinking (a little if ur not comfortable with it, beer is usually lighter and wont make u feel so bad).. hehe go out and have fun!! its good for u :)
Hi there :DDDDD Don't worry bout me, I'll be fine soon ... just want to let you know your accessories stand have arrived :))))) If you didn't see this message by sunday or something, I'll message you to let you know, coz I'm down with fever, cough and sore throat, don't want to get you infected with it ... I'll see you soon!!
yayyy!! haha been wondering how long it'll take to arrive! :) anyway im busy with midsems now. got mixed up with the dates for my midsem :/
i will call u around next week! maybe if ur free we could go out and grab a bite or smtg! hehe cya soon xx
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