Love ... actually

... as I was walking in Queensbay Mall this afternoon ... I was thinking ... what if someone I love is a guy? Would things be different? I had this thought it my mind coz as I was walking ... I saw (straight) couples ... they were clinging to each other ... they can do PDA without people giving them weird stares ... well, people do actually give weird stares when couples (doesn't matter queer or straight) does PDA in public ... just that they would give extra weird stares if you're queer =.=

You know what I'm not complaining ... as I was taking shower just now ... I think back and I feel that I'm lucky to have "her" in my life ... it's better than having 10 boyfriends (not that I ever had any =.=) Coz I love how she's being thoughtful at times ... being understanding ... money is never important to her when it comes to getting anything for me (although she's kiam siap, haha!)... but everyone have their good and bad side ...

And the bad part would be she had bad temper ... as bad as mine =.= so when we fight ... it actually feels like the end of the world ... seriously

I'd actually love to walk around the shopping mall and have her hand holding mine ... We do that sometimes ... but rarely ... only around shopping malls in Butterworth ... it's bad ... coz we (or should I say "she") got used to not holding hands in the beginning of the relationship ... that there are times she told me she doesn't want to hold hands ...

But it was my fault ... coz I'm scared that my parents would accidently bump into me at the shopping mall holding a girl's hand ... that would be ... scary ...

One thing I've learn thoughout this relationship was not to care bout stranger staring at me and her ... I got really comfortable bout it ... and I'm now not afraid even if my friends saw me with her ... but it's NOT ok if my parents saw us together

Some people might say I'm lesbian ... Well, I'm just in love, I don't feel the need to label myself as anything ... Coz I don't specifically tell myself that I'd only fall in love with girls ... So I'll just say that I'm in love :)